Life in the eyes of just another messed up kid
little miss
When you’ve finally started healing, it just starts to get bad again. One panic attack leads to another and you push people away. You stress out because you have nobody, but the stress pushes them even farther away. Every stress leads to another, leaving you with never ending emptiness and sadness, begging for something to finally take your life away, like you have for quite some time now. They say you need time for yourself, but you don’t have time to think about yourself, except when you’re alone with your blade and you wish you could just have one thing go right. The thing is, it has to get better. There’s no way things can get any worse. And then it does, and you feel like there’s no point in living anymore, you don’t have feelings anymore. Theres no point to life, you say. You hope and beg and plead for something to go right, something new to bring you up from this hell that you’ve been trying so hard to escape from. You love the feeling of the blade, but you’ll love happiness and love and friendship more. So put down the blade, put down the pills, and realize that as much as you feel it won’t get better, it really will. Someone does love you. But for you to realize that, you have to love yourself and take care of yourself first. Tell yourself how good you actually are. And if you don’t think anythings good, then lie to yourself until you truly believe how wonderful and amazing you are. People will miss you, people do love you. You just haven’t looked in the right places yet. Always have hope, because it will get better. It has to. You will find peace of mind one day, and people like you will make the world a better place by helping others who need it. You know what needing help is like and you’ll help others because of it. You’re a good person, and even if you don’t believe me, tell yourself how amazing you are. Because you may deny it, but someone will believe it. Hopefully you’re the first person who will. So have hope. Believe there is good out there. You will get help from whatever it is you take solace in. You are loved, and people care about you. Stay alive and safe, if not for you, or the people that need you, but for me. I may be some random kid, but know that even someone you dont know can care about the welfare of others. There are always people There to help even if you don’t believe it. Good luck, and have hope!
